sometimes some matters make ppl think back reflect... jus like wat happen to me.... sth happen... make me reflect on myself, i true best friend....

sad to say but i think I HAVE NO TRUE BEST FRIEND

i find myself as a parker .... my idea of a parker is someone who step into something when they are not surpose to yes, and me I THINK I AM A PARKER!!!
i found out that i had been standing in betweens best friends of so many and that i don really have mine... sound like i am making life worse for them... i have friends yes but all my friends have their own very own best of friends and i found myself to be jus a subsitiute of their friendship.....maybe i sld stop doing this.... i sld stop asking ppl to go out study together cause no one will.... they wld rather study with their own true friend .... i sld stop asking ppl out.... because they only wan go out with their true friend.... i sld stop all this.... i don wan to be a parker... making me feel extra..... jus let me be a loner with no friends that will be much better for everyone? i dono

the only period i experice true best friendship is in pri sch with my gang of really best friends like hh,yy,tania,lcs,eugene,sherlyn,pm,grace,sherry ... etc ... those are my true best friends like till now we even still contact but cause of diff sch, everyone have their own clique except for me.... so am i a friendship failure?? and a study failure???

mum got me a firefly from malaysia yesterday.... its really cute and the flashing glow on its back is so beautiful... i am keeping it as long as i could as my company? i think now my only company wld be it bah.... i dono .... wat i true best friend???

signing off....