it hadnt been quite good days for me lately but wat happen jus today realli change me

sth gd?? not realli, should say more of bad bah.

first start with my parents
and some of u might know, i like designing random stuff, main tool, photoshop.... however i always don have the guts to post up. anyway i did alot and stuff and wanted to show my parents but guess wat, not even a glance on my work and say " wat can u come out with is all the same", omg like thxs man thats very nice encouragement NOT. so after few days of looking for job with no hope, my mum actually jus plan my time for me anyhow like" boy tmr go assi yr father", wth and i ned to push away my original plans and stuff, and worse of all i assi by sitting there holding a stick amoung the old folks, its totally boring and my father refuse to let me try taking the videos.......

so after the assi, my father brought me to PS to orignially meet johnathan lee for a movie and guess wat, i was about to reach he sms me say i cannot make it, at first i thought ok cannot make it on time nvm i can wait BUT NO is cannot make it for the meeting. wow thxs now i know where i stand in you, by telling me cannot make it onli when i sms u at 6 which is our meeting time.

anyway i alighted at ps, walk around, no not realli walk around jus walk around and looking at my contact list and feel lost, first time ever feeling LOST...... you came to mind, and i thought maybe i could ask u to meet me if u are free, i called u, 1st ring reject call, i thought u accidentally, i called again, no ans, i called 3rd time u rejected call..... and guess wat i got the msg already..... i thought u are different, u are someone whome i can reach out or contact when i ned help or maybe ned someone to tok to but no, i am wrong, after how i helped u with no reason and no demand of a form of pay back and u treat me like this, thxs at least i no where i stand in u now, oh ya i forgot to mention i smsed u at 2pm plus thought u busy no reply and till i call u u haven reply, and i jus smsed another and now is already 2 hr pass and no reply. thxs u gave me false hope, and here to let u know, i will cry, i will become emo jus because of u........ so after that i smsed daniel goh, john tan and tania, john tan has church i understand, tania at home studying and i felt so guilty calling her, daniel goh is the best i tell u his the best buddy man, his already out with his friends and he tell me about it so i nvm u enjoy he keep sms sry, his someone who nvr fail to lend me a listening ear or even giving a reply, i realli apprciate knowing u buddy :)

anyway so no choice i headed home after calling home, when i reach home, whole house was empty and dark and quiet, jus like wat i am feeling now, i realli feel like crying serious, I HAVE NO TRUE FRIENDS, those that i think are my true friends have given me or rather show that they are not, i realli feel lonly now very...... at least now i know wat i can do, not to trust so easily?? don be too over in helping someone and get nth in return?? i dono but wat i can say

08/03/2008
marks the day in which i change in perspective of having friends, or rather know that i am jus a loser, a loner.......

now my last hope is on tmr, if anything happen to the original plan for tmr, trust me ppl, the gabriel u know will RIP.......... prey hard