its wed again, it seems i always have realli bad day on wednesday. I skip my first lecture for the year, socialogy lec at 10 -11am, i cant even imagin that i actually skipped it, its not like me, so i slept till 9am wake up and online, note althought i went offline like 12 plus, but i did not manage to sleep the whole night. i was tossing on the bed with lots in mind in wat happen to me on tuesday, its realli heart breaking to have friends to do that and because i couldnt slp, i think alot, alot, and even conclude the position of our friendship in him..... realli damn bad i was emo until this morning, the rain make it worse....... but once i got to sch thxs to my few classmate who cheer me up....... my coursemate too..... anyway ya so i was quite ok until i went to parkway to meet wendy, weixiang, elene..... but before meeting them i went to do a little research on man's makeup and got zero result as usual..... anyway after checking all my stuff i met them at food court.... c them play this memory game which determine yr age until ck and wangzai arrive and they want to go somewhere eat? i dono but i left once they arrive ya.... i have dinner at home waiting for me.........

oh maybe i was not in the mood to join them, jus not like me bah, and plus i wasnt feeling that gd since tuesday.... i was having chest pain either left or right, at first i thought is at the heart area but whos heart is so side till its near yr nipples area side rite, and whos heart is position at the right too ya..... so ya i didnt bother until today after lecture, herman found out that my whole chest was freaking red, i told them about my chest pain, all of their face change and ask me to go c doctor but i don wan, maybe i will c how until friday since i am alright now ya.....i think... i jus hope i am alright realli.... but if i ever die i think except my family memebers no one will be sad for me i guess, i dono its like crazy tok now haiz

i am feeling like how my blog say, emptiness in my heart....